it's all about love

actually there was a time
i wanted to abandon this blog
because of some log in problems
but now seems everything's fine
so that's good
:D

back to the theme all about love
its all about love
everything
all about love

i watched the reader
let the right one in
all good films
really good
make ppl think
and make ppl cry
i cry when hanna is on court
and declared that she's gonna stay behind bars all her life
and michael read to her
every day every night
it's all about love
michael was very young

he was ashamed of the affair with Hanna
but Hanna was ashame of she couldnt read and write
what a shame
not every story ends up happy
a lot is some kinda tragedy
yet that's the truth of life
like tatanic
only few life story ends up like the notebook
snow white
it's like those are just novel
just story
just something we looking forward to
but in real life
these cant happen

just cant
probably i am shamed 2...
just all of what i had done when i was 15
it's a shame
a sweet shame
a sweet sin
but i need to walk out of that memory
i have a life
just need some more time
trust me
i can~

still waiting...

the result of the interview
and whether i could go to HKU this Sept isnt 4 sure yet

panic...
i dont know what 2 do when i still dont get the result
i dont know what 2 do if i get the result
i dont know what 2 do if i was refused
......


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lily allen's new album is awesome
it's not me it's you

this yeat's trend is some mix with electrical
but i still cant add lily on myspace
that stupid last name is drivin me insane

现在才发现，其实，我经常都是在做自己喜欢的

来广州之后，我说要学钢琴。。。
于是，从10岁开始
我开始学钢琴了

还有舞蹈
虽然，是妈妈送我去学的
不过后来是自己真的喜欢了

都是，喜欢的

以后，还是一样
要做自己喜欢的事情
和自己喜欢的人在一起
一直都不要变

天空很黑，我看不到星星

晚上从图书馆出来，抬头，看了看天空
发现深蓝的天空，没有1颗星星点缀
还记得小学的时候，一次去夏令营，去了郊区
晚上抬头看到满天闪闪发亮的星星
还有望远镜，可以看到土星

这让我想到了东湖
3，4岁的时候，夏天一到
爸爸妈妈就带我去东湖游泳
那清澈见底的湖水
还有石头，我穿这那件红色的游泳衣
还有游泳圈
只是不知道什么时候一切都消失了
东湖没有清澈的湖水
剩下死鱼和臭水
眼睁睁看着湖医的废水流进东湖
心理不是滋味

今天英语口试
话题是wealth
的确钱很重要
我不否认
我在想在他们工资都没有1千的时候，
我们住在4楼的小房子
现在的确
家里的经济好了
住的房子大了
是不是我更开心了
不是的
我很想回到那时
至少是1家人
虽然我对父亲没有什么感觉
他从来没有敬过他的责任
他会的只是指责

还有他
一句对不起
就玩了
真的不够男人
当面都没有说清楚
枉我还那么爱他
囧
过去就过去了
我是拿得起放得下的人！

我的阿森纳
我爱你
永远的
永远的
圣诞的魔鬼战役来了
我的魔鬼期末+面试来了
we stand up like a soldier
we fight together
we stand shoulder to shoulder
no one can bring us down
cos we are fighter
face it
and kill the enemy
no way back now
we never look back
cos WE ARE GUNNERS!
WE NEED BALLS
fight
fight
fight
no looking back

EVERYBODY'S CHANGING

每个人都在变
的确
有时候觉得天空很黑
看不到太阳
有时候觉得大雾很浓
看不到前方
有时候觉得夜晚很安静
之能听到自己的心跳

感觉一下
什么才是真实的？
世界是不是真实的？
还是我们是别人控制的一个虚拟世界
希望不是
平行世界在哪里？
我需要doctor
那个fantastic brilliant的doctor

问问我自己
当时为什么那么想去伦敦
不是为了阿森纳
其实，只是赌气
他去加拿大
我要去英国
只是为了赌气
或许是想逃避
也许看不到
就不会想起伤心的事情了

每个人都在改变
感觉一定和4年前不一样
4年前的圣诞节
是最美丽的
因为有你
15岁的生日是最美丽
因为有你
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一切都变得艰难了
我觉得现在港大在卡我们
不想我们过去
好吧
我真的不想说什么
中国最好的大学
港大有资本这样做
只是当时人人都说这个专业好
我只想说
i don't want to study the fucking civil engineering
只是当初一个很无奈的决定
纯粹是为了香港
没有任何意义的

u are never to old to learn
但是i won't be seventeen forever
没有东西是永远的
世界真的好复杂
有时我真的想回到小洪山
八一路
去取那个我曾经上过培优班的科教大厦
还有董必武广场
是不是还和记忆力的一样？
google地图上可以看到我的幼儿园

或许就像小法一样
他要回巴塞罗那
我也要大声地说出来
总有一天
我要回武汉
或许是10年之后
或许是20年
那是我生活10年的地方
点点滴滴
最然会不一样
但是对那里的感情
是不会变得
就算再怎么漂泊
那里总会是我的家

我知道了
不变的是
我是武汉人
永远都不会变
不敢我去到那里
我都是一样
武汉人

always some fantasic things that attract me

go abroad is always what i want
US, Britain...
i always imagine if i went to London last year, what will i become



i really have no idea
after 2 years in college
i kinda lost myself in every way
i wanna what i could achieve
cos i am losing my faith
Civil Engineering is some thing i've never thought of 1 year ago
i still doubt if it is the right choice.
one year ago i was thinking about IC
now all my mind is about HKU...
MIT, Caltech, UC...
all seems so far...
i can't even dream about those anymore
where is the future?
i can't see one...
i still can't just get off those memories
like him.
like last year...
how come i become such a person?

i swear i'll go to bed befor 12 everyday

this is a serious problem. i need to pay attention to my health.

so this is my rule
go to bed everyday before 12.
eat 3 meals a day.

hot n' cold

on the edge of break down
if you could just take me away
only for 1 second
to hold your hand
to feel you near...
since that day you walk out my door...
i can feel u nowhere
and i know that i am barely hanging on
without you by my side
i have to face everything on my own
i don't know if i could achieve anything
i tried every way to forget u
but i just couldn't cos i cant pretend those never happened...


my roommate didn't come back for a week
i heard that she's about to leave
prepared for IELTS
she wanna go to Canada..
i am a little allergy to Canada ...

Everything is about to end.

Next monday will be the english writing test. Final exams are coming. The interview , which i regard one of the most important tasks in my life won't be far. Anyway, things are keeping getting better.:)

Now that britney is back, there's no reason for me to quit

With her new album CIRCUS and Arsenal with the new captain Cesc, they are really doing amazing. Facing the final exams and the interview, there's no way to holding back anything. Though under pressure, i can't give up. It's not even half way yet. Think about it, if i got the chance to go to london last year, now it is also the time for interview. Inevitablely, i have to work hard. And i am going to achieve it. Just wait and see. Everyone is doing his best to help me. Father had already give me a mock interview, and this weekend, my father's friend is going to have another interview the following weekend. And me course, mother is always there to support, help me in everyway. IT IS NOT HALF WAY YET, THERE'S NO REASON TO QUIT:-)

love

i dont know if i still have the ability to fall in love again

sometimes i just wish i was one of the diva in those touching love movies

like tatanic, the notebook, pearl harbour

there will be a man who could just always be there for me

i guess there is no such man in real life

they are just some characteristic in fictions

right at this moment

i have to ask myself 

WHAT IS LOVE?

and

WHERE IS LOVE?

it has been so long since last time

i don't even know what is love

i was so young

like i just dont even know what love is

how can i go so close with him those years..

funny

whatever...

but there will be that special person right?

at least i believe

one guy who goes crazy everytime sees me

right?

and i am crazy 2

surely there will be this guy

i thought i may never have child all my life

cos it's horrible

but if that is someone i really love

if i marry him

and i really love him

i do want kids...

see

this is how people change

don't tell me LONDON is just a dream

don't tell me that
i have faith in myself
london is not a dream
but why i have the feeling that everything is fading
tell me why

Tired

Stomache:-(

there's no way to forgive him

really no way

because he did those things to me last year

killing my London dream

i just can't forgive him

though he may help me with my interview now

there's no way i could do this

yes

my ear ache today:(

score is not important improvement is important

the result is not improtant

it is important that i learn something all the way

RIGHT?

i don't get an A for all drawing assignment...

i feel sad

others seems have A+s As and A-s

but for me 

there is only B B- C C-

:(

I worked hard

but the result is not what i want

is that work hard than i could get what i want

i want a higher score

:(

i feel sad

but wait 

mechanics of materials 

mid term exam i got 85

that is good right?

anyway

i don't know

recently i feel so uncertain about the future...

i don't know why

just the feeling...

i start to use mobile to be online

opera mini is kinda cool

:D

i don't know who can trust...

my life is such a mess

i don't know who i can trust

i wish i never grow up

i never had things bother me like this when i was like 4 or 5

i was happy

anyway

what i learn recently is that 

i ned to face the truth

like i can never get full score in my exams

and arsenal can never win title with kids..

that is the truth...

and what i can do is ACCEPCT it

whatever..

i found someone visiting my blog...

it is wierd 

nearly no one know the address

and i don't want people know my blog

because i don't want others know much about me

who is that person?

i am curious

:P

fuck... is this really the truth?

i went the lab this afternoon

my group has no plan

but the leader didn't tell me....

ok...

fuck it

i don't wanna say anything about this anymore

fuck

even if he called me later around 7

i didn't say anything mean

there is no use to say anything rude or whatever i wanna say

just i don't wanna say anything to anybody

everything is meanless

after class i called mom

i talked about something i feel about the class

and i dont feel that well

cos everybody seems to hide what they know instead of sharing what they had

thoughts is not like apple

u give me one i give u one

both of us still have one

u give me one thought i give u one thought

both of us will have two

but why people don't wanna share?

and i feel somebody really disgusting

what she behave in front of me is totally different from the truth

in other words i think she is look down upon me

whatever

i don't know

just wish i could get out of here soon

can i?

where is the love?

i am really busy these days...

exams..

first it is partial differential equation

then statics...

then material of mechanics

maybe after that the exam about complex equations...

in december..

engineering drawing final exam which take up to 30%....

just wish me luck...

hope i pass all these exams....

god this is gonna kill me

i remember when i was in high school

i go to bed before 11pm

even if i haven't finish my assignments

but now

i stay up to 2 just to finish my assignments

....

i don't know what 2 say..

tears

i know it is hard to say anything more

about him

ABOUT A BOY

i know him

but he may not know me

i should know that there would be no result

why i still keep trying to hold on to him

mom told me that 

THERE IS NO WAY FATHER WON'T INTERVENE MY RELATIONSHIP

sometimes i really wish he could just pretend for a second

let me have the feeling several years ago

i never be with another one again

but i know it is impossible

even if he pretend i may not feel the same before

but just one thing i wanna know

what happened that summer

why he changed so much

how can he be a million miles away from me like we were in 2 galaxies

his parents forced he to break up

i don't know much

cos he didin't tell me much

they said that he wanted to protect me

is this the last thing he can do for me

dreams of u and me....

i hope that dream never ends

the story 'bout us

the love between us

i hope everything never ends

maybe we will never c each other again

this life

maybe next life

if we could meet

i think i'll fall in love with u again 

my love

i don't know what to say about us

cos i don't need to say

u know everything i  thought

never again

no my love

no mi amor

U GOTTA ROCK MY WORLD

THE ACADEMY IS....