i dont like people judge me

mama called today...
she saw my essay..
and she said i should write some more reference
i dont know
i feel very unhappy
so i said byebye

i have to say that
the resource is limited
i have that 7 page essay
should be good enough

i really dont know
sometimes i think that i know
but the truth is that i dont like people judge me
i think i am always right

no
just forget that

i swim today
got some earache


i dont like life here
there's no water during days..
only after 6
theres water supply
sucks
i have no appetite
life sucks

really sucks...

got all the results of my grade of last term

i have to say that i sucked
drawing 66
i expected it could be this low
cos i only got B and C's for those assignments
anyway i didnt fail
should i just look the good point of this?

i ask god why did he let me suffer so much
he never answer me this
but anyway he has give me some hope
seriously
hope

i ought to be hopeful for them
at least i have hope to change everything...

honestly

score is not important improvement is important

the result is not improtant

it is important that i learn something all the way

RIGHT?

i don't get an A for all drawing assignment...

i feel sad

others seems have A+s As and A-s

but for me 

there is only B B- C C-

:(

I worked hard

but the result is not what i want

is that work hard than i could get what i want

i want a higher score

:(

i feel sad

but wait 

mechanics of materials 

mid term exam i got 85

that is good right?

anyway

i don't know

recently i feel so uncertain about the future...

i don't know why

just the feeling...

i start to use mobile to be online

opera mini is kinda cool

:D

i don't know who can trust...

my life is such a mess

i don't know who i can trust

i wish i never grow up

i never had things bother me like this when i was like 4 or 5

i was happy

anyway

what i learn recently is that 

i ned to face the truth

like i can never get full score in my exams

and arsenal can never win title with kids..

that is the truth...

and what i can do is ACCEPCT it

whatever..

i found someone visiting my blog...

it is wierd 

nearly no one know the address

and i don't want people know my blog

because i don't want others know much about me

who is that person?

i am curious

:P