fuck spurs

i expect a home victory............

a 4-4 draw..

i have nothing to say

we can't lose point anymore

is it me who is disgusting or other person want to hide?

i try to figure out every assignments

when i met a difficult problem

when i don't know how to work it out...

i ask my classmate...

what they always said is that

i forgot

i don't remember

it's too long who remebers

i don' know u may ask xxx....

i am confusing

really

they should know how to slove those problems

or they can't have finished those assignments...

i think as a students we need to share our thoughts

but what's going wrong?

is it my problem?

ryan ross is sooooooooo adorable

where is the love?

i am really busy these days...

exams..

first it is partial differential equation

then statics...

then material of mechanics

maybe after that the exam about complex equations...

in december..

engineering drawing final exam which take up to 30%....

just wish me luck...

hope i pass all these exams....

god this is gonna kill me

i remember when i was in high school

i go to bed before 11pm

even if i haven't finish my assignments

but now

i stay up to 2 just to finish my assignments

....

i don't know what 2 say..

who really deserves to win FIFA's world player of the year?

POLL RESULTS

• Lionel Messi27%
• Cristiano Ronaldo44%
• Andrei Arshavin1%
• David Villa3%
• Cesc Fabregas10%
• Fernando Torres15%

it seems that many people think that ronaldo ...

actually

he was great last season

league champion

winner of UCL

I HATE HIM!

i wanna cry

i know that i am always jealous of others
i am not satisfies with the current states
i don't know
if i could get better
i wonder if i could really achieve something
all my life

i am thinking that i am off line
the line i drew 4 myself when i was young
i wanna make cosmetics
whatever
this dream is impossible now

choosing CIVIL ENGINEERING
means i gave up on bio-chemistry
gave up the thing i wanna do for a long time is not difficult
i know that CE can be fun
i know that learning is fun
BUT JUST ONE QUESTION

AM I REALLY HAPPY?

i am not sure
but one thing i could be sure is that i wanna a different life

over all these 18years
i don't know if i have ever been really serious.........

I know recently many things happened
i wonder if i could just get over them
but can u just stop a moment
listen to me
I'LL BARE MY SOUL

but the answer is that u never really listen....



no one really understands me
it is hard
i seldom show my deepest part

i don't know my life after all these tough years about being a student
can i really get what i want?
what i eager for?
what my life will be?

an indenpent woman or a housewife?




it is too late to apologize....






i am the only person who write and read this blog
whatever
this is a place for myself
i don't intend for anybody
just my life
i write
here
i don't expect anyone
really

and i know i could be a better person





Gil is right...

LIFE IS UNFAIR

为什么总是我的错？

小时候培优班的学费

现在是奖学金

难道是我的命运吗？？

出了事情总是怪我

是我的理解力有问题吗？

到底该怎么样？

就像你当年说分手

我们还是好朋友一样？

只是安慰我的一句话吗？

你知道那天我转身是哭着跑开的吗？

你知道你生日那天

我们的对话

伤了我多深吗？

你知道

我一直都放不下你吗？
你知道

其实我一直都没有再恋爱吗？

你知道

我一直都在等你开口和我说话吗？

你知道我一直喜欢的都是你吗？

对不起这3个字

我不想再听到

我好像有人抱抱我

我也是个女人

我也有脆弱的一面

我真的希望

在你面前

i could bare my soul

我可以不用假装anything

i could be the real me

我好像你抱着我

整个世界只有我们

对不起。

我真的很希望

那个夏天

我们还在一起

伤心的时候

总是想到你

因为

我哭了

你总可以安慰我

让我笑

过去的事情

为什么要那么美好

boyfriend

mom and I talked about BOYFRIEND today

i haven't really talked to her about everything happened 4 years ago

all the first times

SHE told me not to fall so easily

i don't know how to tell her

i was once in love with a boy

and we did so much crazy things

all those things i don't know how to say

i never really tell her the relastionship between us

she still thought we were just gooood friends

but we have actually cross that line

i am sorry

i am not such a good girl

--------------------------

PATD said that EMO IS BULLSHIT

i don't know

i know that PATD is awesome

i can't say anything

more

i don't know what to say

EMO is not BULLSHIT

at least secondhand serenade's songs made think about a lot about before

i don't know what to say

all these story seems too long

but suddenly it seems too short

everything's gone

he is gone

so long ago

finally wion

i was afraid to lose the game again

when i watch the score borad it showed 0-1

EVERTON was leading by an early goal

WHATEVER in 2nd half

NARSI  VAN PERSIE  WALCOTT

3 goal

help arsenal won this home game

whatever chelsea and liverpool are leading the league table 20 points

we still got 4 points

good luck on 

Fenerbahce v Arsenal

UEFA Champions League

Tuesday, October 21 19:45

a draw would be nice !

dreamed about FRAN MERIDA

amazing dream

he's so hot

and i just can't stop thinking about him 

god we kissed

I LOVE FRAN MERIDA

tears

i know it is hard to say anything more

about him

ABOUT A BOY

i know him

but he may not know me

i should know that there would be no result

why i still keep trying to hold on to him

mom told me that 

THERE IS NO WAY FATHER WON'T INTERVENE MY RELATIONSHIP

sometimes i really wish he could just pretend for a second

let me have the feeling several years ago

i never be with another one again

but i know it is impossible

even if he pretend i may not feel the same before

but just one thing i wanna know

what happened that summer

why he changed so much

how can he be a million miles away from me like we were in 2 galaxies

his parents forced he to break up

i don't know much

cos he didin't tell me much

they said that he wanted to protect me

is this the last thing he can do for me

dreams of u and me....

i hope that dream never ends

the story 'bout us

the love between us

i hope everything never ends

maybe we will never c each other again

this life

maybe next life

if we could meet

i think i'll fall in love with u again 

my love

i don't know what to say about us

cos i don't need to say

u know everything i  thought

never again

no my love

no mi amor

U GOTTA ROCK MY WORLD

THE ACADEMY IS....

it's pretty good today

i don't have to finish any homework tonight 

the deadline is far...

next week

lol

i've just look some of the notes of maths

really got a busy schedule 

the weekend i must finish my drawing

and maybe if i got sometime

i wanna finish MM assignments

I WANNA KNOW IF I COULD LET MY MIND GO FREE OF U WHEN I KEEP MYSELF BUSY

老师，您真的就这样离开了？

真的就这样离开了？

我说不上我对执信有多有感情。。。

因为同学聚会我基本不去

毕业之后

我也没有再回去过

昨天晚上快12点的时候

敏敏发了短信给我。。

佩佩...老聂...

就这样离开了？

why do all good things come to end？

和当年大梁走的一样突然

大梁是糖尿病。。

医生诊断的结果是感冒，就给她打葡萄糖，如果我没记错的话，这是陆志成说的。。。

没有几天，大梁就离开了

多好的老师啊

虽然初2的时候

大梁不教我们了。。。

很复杂的心情

其实去年校运会的时候我想和废曲一起回去的

但是那天刚好是院运会，抽不出时间

今年我是准备回去的。。。

想看看那些老师

那些可爱的人们

虽然有些老师我不喜欢

但毕竟，在那里6年

总有一些感情的吧

就像武汉一样

8年了，我一直都没有回去

只是很想以前的同学

儿时的朋友

幼儿园的伙伴们

我不知道该怎么形容

离开多年的感觉

是不是不会再回去了？

是不是就这样结束了一切

那边的一切，现在好陌生

记忆开始有些模糊了

眼睛也开始有些模糊了

是不是从今天开始

我要学会承受这里亲爱的人们离开的痛苦

是不是我还没有经历过亲人的离开

不知道这些痛苦

我能够像doctor一样

用那音速螺丝刀，一按，让人从新活过来吗？

或者像超人一样

把地球转一下

改变历史。。。

i ain't doctor 

i ain't superwoman

i really need some strong beat to keep me away from those pain

CAN U ROCK MY WORLD?

my high school maths teacher passed away

T_T

tears in my eyes...

prayers for my lovely teacher

always

i miss u....

FABREGAS miss HLEB& FLAM

Arsenal midfielder Cesc Fabregas regrets the departure of Alexander Hleb and Mathieu Flamini, as he feels The Gunners are lacking experience.
The Gunners’ maestro reckons his squad is short on numbers following the departure of major players, and he even claims the team have been forced to change the way they play.
The Spaniard is also missing playmaker Tomas Rosicky, who is still sidelined through injury.
“We have a short squad and we are very young,” Fabregas told a press conference. “Behind me Denilson and [Alexandre] Song play, and they are 20. [Theo] Walcott is 19 and [Samir] Nasri is 21.
“Can you imagine I’m the oldest midfielder? Winning will be tough for us because we are not experienced.
“Last season I scored a lot because I had [Tomas] Rosicky, and [Mathieu] Flamini who used to run all over the pitch.
“[Alexander] Hleb as well, who is like my brother. They have gone now and I feel weird. We are more conservative and strong, but with less touches.”
European champion Fabregas is an admirer of Arsene Wenger and has explained why the Frenchman is not into making big money signings.
He added: “Arsene Wenger has crystal clears ideas, there aren’t two like him. He doesn’t want to spend money as he prefers to trust youngsters.
“His idea is that Walcott can’t develop if you sign Cristiano [Ronaldo].”
The midfielder has compared Arsenal’s and Spain’s tactics, and even if he understands his status is much more important under Arsene Wenger, Fabregas remains a patient player when he wears the national jersey.
“To me it (not being an automatic starter for his country) is not an issue because I’m aware I’m young,” he added. “I play differently and must adapt.
“I’m not an attacker that plays with his back to goal because I haven’t got the body neither the agility to do it.
“I need to watch what’s happening because I’m not quick neither agile. I rely on my passes and my vision.
“Nowadays we play in 5-4-1 with Spain and at Arsenal it’s always 4-4-2. At Arsenal I can move, do what I think I must do. The gaffer doesn’t make me to do anything. I feel free.
“With Spain it is different, you touch the ball, make lots of controls. There (in England) it’s more about counter attacks and going as quickly as possible in front of the goal.
“I know who I am. I notice a change when I’m with Spain but it’s normal - I don’t play (in La Liga) and people don’t see me. I am 21 and have so much to learn.
“I feel so important in England, but you should remain humble when you play football.”
Fabregas was then asked about his opinion over foreign investment in The Premier League, and he said: “This hasn’t happened to Arsenal. But it’s like a hobby to them, like a toy.
“When they don’t like it they change it.”
Fabregas scored a last-second equaliser during the 1-1 draw at Sunderland but claims he is not good at headers.
“It’s rare because I’m used to scoring set pieces including corners, and I’m not good at headers. But I’d like to improve because a midfielder that can head the ball is more efficient.
“Most of all I must improve defensively. I always want to attack, to score, to deliver, it’s my dream.”



i miss them 2..
arsenal
come on
we could do it this season...
league champion
champion's league
in arsene i trust

i miss u..........

when mom mention the word BOYFRIEND to me.

all i am thinking is u

and i can't help tears falling

i miss u..

i know we haven't talk for like 2 or 3 years...

no my love

i know i could go on without u...

but it seems so hard..

mi amor

i love u...

i know we can't go back to 15 but just let me know we could still be friends........

but now we are totally stranger

i feel so strange

baby

i love brendon urie!!

he's so cute

and so funny 

that kinda guy i want!!

THE REASON WHY

"The Reason Why"

Yesterday

I waited for your friends to walk away

So I could say just what I mean

I know we're moving fast

We're running from the past

I'm holding on before it fades away

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake

And Baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

There's a reason why they say that we should give it time

But time is not enough

And that's the reason why

When you're young you fall in love

Standing still

I'm waiting round to see if this is real

Cause I feel like I'm asleep

I'll open up my eyes

Cause you might be the type

Of girl that makes me dream when I'm awake

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake

And baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

There's a reason why they say that we should give it time

But time is not enough

And that's the reason why

When you're young you fall in love

So tell me can this really work

Or will we end up getting hurt

Is this love or myth

So tell me are you in for this

There's so much than we can see

More than you

More than me

It takes two to believe

Maybe it's our first mistake

And baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

Maybe it's our first mistake

And baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

There's a reason why they say that we should give it time

But time is not enough

And that's the reason why

When you're young you fall in love

That's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

That's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

with my fav movie

the notebook!

no premier league this weekend

international game this week...............

Estonia v Spain, October 11th, Belgium v Spain, October 14th.

i hope cesc not start all these 2 games, otherwise he'll be 2 tired 

we have the home game again EVERTON next sunday...

just hope to win....

good luck to THEO....

wish a hat trick

littlest things

lily allen's song......

really feel something...

"Littlest Things"

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing

Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'

And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's

All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses

I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood

I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could

We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt

I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

[Chorus]

Dreams, Dreams

Of when we had just started things

Dreams of you and me

It seems, It seems

That I can't shake those memories

I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but its so true

I know its not right, but it seems unfair

That the things are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on, Tell me

Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed

Watching DVD's

When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines

You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers

As if we ever needed anything to entertain us

the first time that you introduced me to your friends

and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand

when I was feeling down, you made that face you do

There's no one in the world that could replace you

[Chorus]

Dreams, Dreams

Of when we had just started things

Dreams of me and you

It seems, It seems

That I can't shake those memories

I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but its so true

I know its not right, but it seems unfair

That the things reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on, Tell me

Is this the end?

i don't know why..it just remind me of him....

i never really forget him

i don't know what to do with those memories

watching people around me have that one with them

i don't know what to say, what to do

just that is gone

it's gone

i won't c him again

but he always has a place in my heart i know this and i won't deny what happened that year. the best time of my life, with him

i was so happy but now i feel so lonely

sometimes i just wish i could just pretend if only just for one moment, just hold my hand. that is enough,tell me, he always love me.

that is enough....

i am so fuckin tired

damn

assignments...

deadline monday....

fuck 

can i just got sometime Off?

IT SEEMS GOOD!!!

maths....

i start to understand those FOURIER SERIES

DIFFUSION EQUATION

that's good!!!

keep on!!!
i love u!!

and it seems no one can help

something it just needs me to get down there to finish.

NOW it is hard for me to trust anyone

AM I RUNNIN IN THE WAY THAT MY PARENTS DESIGNED FOR ME?

i know this is not what i want

i don't like civil.

i LOVE biology

i love mixing things

i don't know...

i've always imagine my life if i went to LONDON last year

i know that i wanna do something related to sports.

but now is just different..............

MICHAEL PHELPS' GF?

IS THIS REALLY HIS GF?
i don't know what 2 say....
OMG...

TAMARA ROJO my fav ballerina

my fav pic...
i know her from a tv show...
she was doing interview with my dear CESC
principal dancer of ROYAL BALLET
AWESOME ballerina...
i love her...

passing my high school, those thoughts flow back

thousands of thoughts...

suddenly flow back

i haven't go back over these years.

really

those things still there

time did heal those pains

thinking back 

i only have one question now

DID WE REALLY LOVED?

I wonder if that is called love...

i have no answer

whatever

just forget about all that 

maybe it is just that i never had a father caring for me and i was thinking that maybe he could give me something i wanted from man

anyway i now know that i should be strong

there is no one i could rely on except mom

she is always that one

she is always there for me

all these years

even when i abandon her

she was still there

just memories sometimes hunting me

but not any more from now