Finally we won before new year

Whatever it is good. Goal from william gallas.

We could have won the game

Now the problem is not about title any more because we are no longer in. The problem is about whether we can keep top 4 place. I seriously doubt.

天空很黑，我看不到星星

晚上从图书馆出来，抬头，看了看天空
发现深蓝的天空，没有1颗星星点缀
还记得小学的时候，一次去夏令营，去了郊区
晚上抬头看到满天闪闪发亮的星星
还有望远镜，可以看到土星

这让我想到了东湖
3，4岁的时候，夏天一到
爸爸妈妈就带我去东湖游泳
那清澈见底的湖水
还有石头，我穿这那件红色的游泳衣
还有游泳圈
只是不知道什么时候一切都消失了
东湖没有清澈的湖水
剩下死鱼和臭水
眼睁睁看着湖医的废水流进东湖
心理不是滋味

今天英语口试
话题是wealth
的确钱很重要
我不否认
我在想在他们工资都没有1千的时候，
我们住在4楼的小房子
现在的确
家里的经济好了
住的房子大了
是不是我更开心了
不是的
我很想回到那时
至少是1家人
虽然我对父亲没有什么感觉
他从来没有敬过他的责任
他会的只是指责

还有他
一句对不起
就玩了
真的不够男人
当面都没有说清楚
枉我还那么爱他
囧
过去就过去了
我是拿得起放得下的人！

我的阿森纳
我爱你
永远的
永远的
圣诞的魔鬼战役来了
我的魔鬼期末+面试来了
we stand up like a soldier
we fight together
we stand shoulder to shoulder
no one can bring us down
cos we are fighter
face it
and kill the enemy
no way back now
we never look back
cos WE ARE GUNNERS!
WE NEED BALLS
fight
fight
fight
no looking back

圣诞战义来了…我们一起度过难关

队长受伤了…膝盖韧带出问题了…我们总是那么像…是不是我努力一点，球队的成绩会更好一点？魔鬼的圣诞战役来了…魔鬼的期末和面试来了…一切不可能停止，下场对维拉，不能输，已经没有退路了。所以，我们要站起来，像个武士一样，拿起武器，拼了，豁出去了。stand up like a soldier, and fight. We need some balls. Don't stand there and cry like a bitch.

EVERYBODY'S CHANGING

每个人都在变
的确
有时候觉得天空很黑
看不到太阳
有时候觉得大雾很浓
看不到前方
有时候觉得夜晚很安静
之能听到自己的心跳

感觉一下
什么才是真实的？
世界是不是真实的？
还是我们是别人控制的一个虚拟世界
希望不是
平行世界在哪里？
我需要doctor
那个fantastic brilliant的doctor

问问我自己
当时为什么那么想去伦敦
不是为了阿森纳
其实，只是赌气
他去加拿大
我要去英国
只是为了赌气
或许是想逃避
也许看不到
就不会想起伤心的事情了

每个人都在改变
感觉一定和4年前不一样
4年前的圣诞节
是最美丽的
因为有你
15岁的生日是最美丽
因为有你
-----------------------------
一切都变得艰难了
我觉得现在港大在卡我们
不想我们过去
好吧
我真的不想说什么
中国最好的大学
港大有资本这样做
只是当时人人都说这个专业好
我只想说
i don't want to study the fucking civil engineering
只是当初一个很无奈的决定
纯粹是为了香港
没有任何意义的

u are never to old to learn
但是i won't be seventeen forever
没有东西是永远的
世界真的好复杂
有时我真的想回到小洪山
八一路
去取那个我曾经上过培优班的科教大厦
还有董必武广场
是不是还和记忆力的一样？
google地图上可以看到我的幼儿园

或许就像小法一样
他要回巴塞罗那
我也要大声地说出来
总有一天
我要回武汉
或许是10年之后
或许是20年
那是我生活10年的地方
点点滴滴
最然会不一样
但是对那里的感情
是不会变得
就算再怎么漂泊
那里总会是我的家

我知道了
不变的是
我是武汉人
永远都不会变
不敢我去到那里
我都是一样
武汉人

绝望了

我看不到希望…我不知道和谁说…明天考4级…晚上发现，本来上午应该交的图没交…完蛋了…为什么一切都变的那么难…我真的很想放弃了…让我看不到希望…我只是想身边有个他，有个肩膀能让我靠靠，有个地方让我躲躲，在他身边我能感到安全…我不想再说我很坚强，我是女人，我也需要爱，可是没有人…那个他，分开之后就一直没怎么联系了…我不愿意承认一个事实，我爱他，超过我所想的…那次他说他想我，我回了他，我们已经结束了。是我先放手的，但我没有彻底的放手…我想离家出走…我想一个人静一下…我要思考的太多了…好混乱，那年他过生日，他说他不爱我了，因为爱一个人很累…是的，舆论，还是拆散了我们，那对不起3个字，是我心中永远的疼。我不能假装没有发生过一切…所有的第一次，刻骨铭心…我们的约定…我还是坚守着…我还是没有放下…时间没能治愈我的伤…我一直在骗我自己。对不起…在最美丽的时刻分开，是最美丽的…就像维娜斯…不是完美，却是完美…

i sucked

I FORGOT TO HAND IN THE DRAWING ASSIGNMENT...
2 OF THEM
HOW COM???
WHY???
I DON'T REALLY HAVE GOOD MARK ON THOSE had given back, only B+ the highest...
and with C- ...
i may fail...
on my god...
no non

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

no
no no

always some fantasic things that attract me

go abroad is always what i want
US, Britain...
i always imagine if i went to London last year, what will i become



i really have no idea
after 2 years in college
i kinda lost myself in every way
i wanna what i could achieve
cos i am losing my faith
Civil Engineering is some thing i've never thought of 1 year ago
i still doubt if it is the right choice.
one year ago i was thinking about IC
now all my mind is about HKU...
MIT, Caltech, UC...
all seems so far...
i can't even dream about those anymore
where is the future?
i can't see one...
i still can't just get off those memories
like him.
like last year...
how come i become such a person?

early winter

gwen Stefani
i remember the first time i heard her song, she was still in No doubt...
than her first album LAMB
what you waiting for

cool
this song is that summer 2005, the year i had the hardest time during that summer vacation.

i can never be as cool as gwen
i can't pretend nothing happened
forget about friends
it's just bullshit
we are nothing now
it's like everything is going away a long time
i admit it was sweet
but it was over
and i know it will over
we cant be forever
nothing last forever
i know this
but why i still felt so sad

i did had a bad day went back in Sept, 2005
i thought u too
but how come you get things pass so easy
i even said that u don't love me any more
u said that love is too tired
why?
why?
how?
how?
i don't believe
i cried
i screamed
i was desperate
BUT NOW
I TELL MYSELF EVERYDAY
LOVE IS NOT HIM
LOVE IS ME
LOVE IS MORE THAN THAT
he is not that person
i knew it
i knew it
but i just can't shake those memories
---------------------
Daniel Powter is just awesome
stop the talk
walk the walk

i swear i'll go to bed befor 12 everyday

this is a serious problem. i need to pay attention to my health.

so this is my rule
go to bed everyday before 12.
eat 3 meals a day.

hot n' cold

on the edge of break down
if you could just take me away
only for 1 second
to hold your hand
to feel you near...
since that day you walk out my door...
i can feel u nowhere
and i know that i am barely hanging on
without you by my side
i have to face everything on my own
i don't know if i could achieve anything
i tried every way to forget u
but i just couldn't cos i cant pretend those never happened...


my roommate didn't come back for a week
i heard that she's about to leave
prepared for IELTS
she wanna go to Canada..
i am a little allergy to Canada ...

The all american rejects

I remember the first time listen to their song MOVE ALONG on MTV in 2005. And later their single IT ENDS TONIGHT. Feel so much about those lines WHEN DARKNESS TURNS TO LIGHT IT ENDS TONIGHT. And this morning suddenly listen to STRAITJACKET FEELING, So many feelings flow out. RUN AWAY THIS TIME WITHOUT U. 2005 i was feeling that so much. Tell me it is already over. But why i still dream about him saturday. It ends when i don't even give him all my love. It ends the moment that i am falling deeper and deeper for him. But why? Tell me why, why goodbye? I love u...no, i loved you...

i drive myself crazy

it's an old song
but it is awesome
from the boy group n' sync

Everything is about to end.

Next monday will be the english writing test. Final exams are coming. The interview , which i regard one of the most important tasks in my life won't be far. Anyway, things are keeping getting better.:)

Now that britney is back, there's no reason for me to quit

With her new album CIRCUS and Arsenal with the new captain Cesc, they are really doing amazing. Facing the final exams and the interview, there's no way to holding back anything. Though under pressure, i can't give up. It's not even half way yet. Think about it, if i got the chance to go to london last year, now it is also the time for interview. Inevitablely, i have to work hard. And i am going to achieve it. Just wait and see. Everyone is doing his best to help me. Father had already give me a mock interview, and this weekend, my father's friend is going to have another interview the following weekend. And me course, mother is always there to support, help me in everyway. IT IS NOT HALF WAY YET, THERE'S NO REASON TO QUIT:-)

It can't be him

But the truth is him.:-( i don't know what to say. It is complicated. More than 3 years have passed, i don't know why i still can't shake those memories. It is just so hard. I feel frustrated. He constantly appears in my dream. Why did i think about him when i feel helpless?

JONAS BROTHERS

i remember that i saw a really cute band a few years ago on MTV

i thought they were 30 seconds to mars

but the fact is that they are JONAS BROTHERS

just awesome

YEAR 3000

rock!!

love

i dont know if i still have the ability to fall in love again

sometimes i just wish i was one of the diva in those touching love movies

like tatanic, the notebook, pearl harbour

there will be a man who could just always be there for me

i guess there is no such man in real life

they are just some characteristic in fictions

right at this moment

i have to ask myself 

WHAT IS LOVE?

and

WHERE IS LOVE?

it has been so long since last time

i don't even know what is love

i was so young

like i just dont even know what love is

how can i go so close with him those years..

funny

whatever...

but there will be that special person right?

at least i believe

one guy who goes crazy everytime sees me

right?

and i am crazy 2

surely there will be this guy

i thought i may never have child all my life

cos it's horrible

but if that is someone i really love

if i marry him

and i really love him

i do want kids...

see

this is how people change

don't tell me LONDON is just a dream

don't tell me that
i have faith in myself
london is not a dream
but why i have the feeling that everything is fading
tell me why

Tired

Stomache:-(

there's no way to forgive him

really no way

because he did those things to me last year

killing my London dream

i just can't forgive him

though he may help me with my interview now

there's no way i could do this

yes

my ear ache today:(

i feel nothing when i see handsome guys

i am doubting whether i have the ability to fall in love again

it's been more than 3 years

i havent fall in love since then

i don't know where it went wrong

but at least i wanna make sure i could start all over again

is it because i havent met someone that i could fall

or that my heart has already dead

always some sweet dreams

always dreams...

what can't it just be real

i remember that guy called kevin...

just the same name of the guy in my first ever story....

he was really hot...

but that is not true

but those kissing really feels good....

damn....

who long do i have to wait???

score is not important improvement is important

the result is not improtant

it is important that i learn something all the way

RIGHT?

i don't get an A for all drawing assignment...

i feel sad

others seems have A+s As and A-s

but for me 

there is only B B- C C-

:(

I worked hard

but the result is not what i want

is that work hard than i could get what i want

i want a higher score

:(

i feel sad

but wait 

mechanics of materials 

mid term exam i got 85

that is good right?

anyway

i don't know

recently i feel so uncertain about the future...

i don't know why

just the feeling...

i start to use mobile to be online

opera mini is kinda cool

:D

cesc captain and fran is likely to be added to the squad.

GOOD NEWS

cesc definitely should be captain

and fran

go fran

anyway good luck arsenal

i don't know who can trust...

my life is such a mess

i don't know who i can trust

i wish i never grow up

i never had things bother me like this when i was like 4 or 5

i was happy

anyway

what i learn recently is that 

i ned to face the truth

like i can never get full score in my exams

and arsenal can never win title with kids..

that is the truth...

and what i can do is ACCEPCT it

whatever..

i found someone visiting my blog...

it is wierd 

nearly no one know the address

and i don't want people know my blog

because i don't want others know much about me

who is that person?

i am curious

:P

arsenal arsenal why can i say?

people starting to question Wenger

i remember a forenight ago i saw a poll on dailymail

who will be the next manager to get sacked

wenger is on top

is it wenger's fault that we get 4 trophyless season

we can't win with "kids"...

i don't know

loudmouth gallas is not captain now

dailymail said that CESC is the new captain

actually that is what i think

cesc should be captain

but beaten by city..

0-3

i dont know what to say...

arsenal

league title is now impossible

but is there a chance in cup?

let's wait...

that does not make sense

they got last years exam paper

and this year

the problem is almost the same

even the numerical value

speechless

can anybody help me out

i really have no idea

what to do

after these days

exams 

scores

everything is turning against me

i don't know if i could still hang on

who knew

the last kiss i'll cherish

until we meet again

i will cherish every moment we ever had

cos we'll never meet again

whatever the reason we fall apart finally

and theres no way to turn back time

i just wish u could pretend we were some kinda good friend

but it's all over..

forget about it

in your arms + desperate

i really wish someone to hold me

if i could feel his heart beaten

pointless relationship

it was all pointless

i never really fall in love with him

it is his Bday

i try to forget

but i can't 

3 years ago

the very last conversation

i decided to forget everything 

leave that relationship behand and start a new life

now that i'm sure

i wanna a new life

i can live a wonderful life without anyone

maybe weve tried

maybe it is that we r not a match

maybe it is not love between us

betray?

it was because of his mother or that he loved her?

that might be the reason...

i don't know

i just have the feeling of being betrayed

fuck... is this really the truth?

i went the lab this afternoon

my group has no plan

but the leader didn't tell me....

ok...

fuck it

i don't wanna say anything about this anymore

fuck

even if he called me later around 7

i didn't say anything mean

there is no use to say anything rude or whatever i wanna say

just i don't wanna say anything to anybody

everything is meanless

after class i called mom

i talked about something i feel about the class

and i dont feel that well

cos everybody seems to hide what they know instead of sharing what they had

thoughts is not like apple

u give me one i give u one

both of us still have one

u give me one thought i give u one thought

both of us will have two

but why people don't wanna share?

and i feel somebody really disgusting

what she behave in front of me is totally different from the truth

in other words i think she is look down upon me

whatever

i don't know

just wish i could get out of here soon

can i?

61...narrowly past the exam on TM

one thing i don't understand is that why i still got such a low mark

i studied much harder than the previous year

this is gonna kill me

i don' know why

theoretical mechanics isn't that difficult right?

but why i still can't get a score like 80 some

where is that problem?

any one come to save my world?

i got questions but i can't figure out the answer.

so much things 

the world seems so unreal

Supporting Arsenal is like having an Italian lover - you never know what's coming next but it's bloody exciting

that is right

absolutely right

i never know what is next 

we may win 

we may lose

but there is always surprise

and IT IS BLOODY EXCITING!

2-1 united 

awesome

i love u !

why is him?

lying in the bed we used to

the sheet was the same as those days.

mom changed that for me

suddenly those memory flowed

time went back to 2005

i was 15

i got the best present that year

it doesn't matter what is the present

what matter is the person who gives u 

sometimes i still reminisce especially when i watch couples holding hands walking together

why is him again?

holding hands together

he walked me home...

just why

we kissed

why is him who appear in my dream?

it ends 3 years ago

everything ended long time ago

why is him still haunting me?

i should have already get over them

i cant forget.

why forget?

it ends tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain 

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends 

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

when darkness turns to light

it ends tonight

and it is really better to leave me along

tell me when the night is over

we are not over

but that night

after that phone call

and those messages.

everything ends

end of a era

it was a end of me and u

the story ends there

absolutely it was not the end i want

but think back

can we really go that far

there would still be an end one day

maybe not july 8th 2005

maybe some day later

there would be a goodbye

think back that wasn't a bad goodbye

at least we had it

the point is that at least we had it

that is enough

i know i would be regret if i hadn't tell him i love him

once is enough

and i know that once is really enough

forever is so hard

but we had it

once we had it

and those memories were sweet

i know i have loved u

eric dill

eric saying goodbye

eric singing MARY JANE

so wonderful

i didn't cry the day u moved away

i didin't think that i could feel this pain

until i saw the stranger that was u

i was wrong that was not the last

i wrote something last week 

i decided that was the last piece i wrote about u

I WAS SO WRONG

there will never be the end

u & me

though we r apart now

if i could have one chance

if u could just pretend for 1 day

that is enough for me

let me feel it one more time

just tell u 

u r not so far.

fuck spurs

i expect a home victory............

a 4-4 draw..

i have nothing to say

we can't lose point anymore

is it me who is disgusting or other person want to hide?

i try to figure out every assignments

when i met a difficult problem

when i don't know how to work it out...

i ask my classmate...

what they always said is that

i forgot

i don't remember

it's too long who remebers

i don' know u may ask xxx....

i am confusing

really

they should know how to slove those problems

or they can't have finished those assignments...

i think as a students we need to share our thoughts

but what's going wrong?

is it my problem?

ryan ross is sooooooooo adorable

where is the love?

i am really busy these days...

exams..

first it is partial differential equation

then statics...

then material of mechanics

maybe after that the exam about complex equations...

in december..

engineering drawing final exam which take up to 30%....

just wish me luck...

hope i pass all these exams....

god this is gonna kill me

i remember when i was in high school

i go to bed before 11pm

even if i haven't finish my assignments

but now

i stay up to 2 just to finish my assignments

....

i don't know what 2 say..

who really deserves to win FIFA's world player of the year?

POLL RESULTS

• Lionel Messi27%
• Cristiano Ronaldo44%
• Andrei Arshavin1%
• David Villa3%
• Cesc Fabregas10%
• Fernando Torres15%

it seems that many people think that ronaldo ...

actually

he was great last season

league champion

winner of UCL

I HATE HIM!

i wanna cry

i know that i am always jealous of others
i am not satisfies with the current states
i don't know
if i could get better
i wonder if i could really achieve something
all my life

i am thinking that i am off line
the line i drew 4 myself when i was young
i wanna make cosmetics
whatever
this dream is impossible now

choosing CIVIL ENGINEERING
means i gave up on bio-chemistry
gave up the thing i wanna do for a long time is not difficult
i know that CE can be fun
i know that learning is fun
BUT JUST ONE QUESTION

AM I REALLY HAPPY?

i am not sure
but one thing i could be sure is that i wanna a different life

over all these 18years
i don't know if i have ever been really serious.........

I know recently many things happened
i wonder if i could just get over them
but can u just stop a moment
listen to me
I'LL BARE MY SOUL

but the answer is that u never really listen....



no one really understands me
it is hard
i seldom show my deepest part

i don't know my life after all these tough years about being a student
can i really get what i want?
what i eager for?
what my life will be?

an indenpent woman or a housewife?




it is too late to apologize....






i am the only person who write and read this blog
whatever
this is a place for myself
i don't intend for anybody
just my life
i write
here
i don't expect anyone
really

and i know i could be a better person





Gil is right...

LIFE IS UNFAIR

为什么总是我的错？

小时候培优班的学费

现在是奖学金

难道是我的命运吗？？

出了事情总是怪我

是我的理解力有问题吗？

到底该怎么样？

就像你当年说分手

我们还是好朋友一样？

只是安慰我的一句话吗？

你知道那天我转身是哭着跑开的吗？

你知道你生日那天

我们的对话

伤了我多深吗？

你知道

我一直都放不下你吗？
你知道

其实我一直都没有再恋爱吗？

你知道

我一直都在等你开口和我说话吗？

你知道我一直喜欢的都是你吗？

对不起这3个字

我不想再听到

我好像有人抱抱我

我也是个女人

我也有脆弱的一面

我真的希望

在你面前

i could bare my soul

我可以不用假装anything

i could be the real me

我好像你抱着我

整个世界只有我们

对不起。

我真的很希望

那个夏天

我们还在一起

伤心的时候

总是想到你

因为

我哭了

你总可以安慰我

让我笑

过去的事情

为什么要那么美好

boyfriend

mom and I talked about BOYFRIEND today

i haven't really talked to her about everything happened 4 years ago

all the first times

SHE told me not to fall so easily

i don't know how to tell her

i was once in love with a boy

and we did so much crazy things

all those things i don't know how to say

i never really tell her the relastionship between us

she still thought we were just gooood friends

but we have actually cross that line

i am sorry

i am not such a good girl

--------------------------

PATD said that EMO IS BULLSHIT

i don't know

i know that PATD is awesome

i can't say anything

more

i don't know what to say

EMO is not BULLSHIT

at least secondhand serenade's songs made think about a lot about before

i don't know what to say

all these story seems too long

but suddenly it seems too short

everything's gone

he is gone

so long ago

finally wion

i was afraid to lose the game again

when i watch the score borad it showed 0-1

EVERTON was leading by an early goal

WHATEVER in 2nd half

NARSI  VAN PERSIE  WALCOTT

3 goal

help arsenal won this home game

whatever chelsea and liverpool are leading the league table 20 points

we still got 4 points

good luck on 

Fenerbahce v Arsenal

UEFA Champions League

Tuesday, October 21 19:45

a draw would be nice !

dreamed about FRAN MERIDA

amazing dream

he's so hot

and i just can't stop thinking about him 

god we kissed

I LOVE FRAN MERIDA

tears

i know it is hard to say anything more

about him

ABOUT A BOY

i know him

but he may not know me

i should know that there would be no result

why i still keep trying to hold on to him

mom told me that 

THERE IS NO WAY FATHER WON'T INTERVENE MY RELATIONSHIP

sometimes i really wish he could just pretend for a second

let me have the feeling several years ago

i never be with another one again

but i know it is impossible

even if he pretend i may not feel the same before

but just one thing i wanna know

what happened that summer

why he changed so much

how can he be a million miles away from me like we were in 2 galaxies

his parents forced he to break up

i don't know much

cos he didin't tell me much

they said that he wanted to protect me

is this the last thing he can do for me

dreams of u and me....

i hope that dream never ends

the story 'bout us

the love between us

i hope everything never ends

maybe we will never c each other again

this life

maybe next life

if we could meet

i think i'll fall in love with u again 

my love

i don't know what to say about us

cos i don't need to say

u know everything i  thought

never again

no my love

no mi amor

U GOTTA ROCK MY WORLD

THE ACADEMY IS....

it's pretty good today

i don't have to finish any homework tonight 

the deadline is far...

next week

lol

i've just look some of the notes of maths

really got a busy schedule 

the weekend i must finish my drawing

and maybe if i got sometime

i wanna finish MM assignments

I WANNA KNOW IF I COULD LET MY MIND GO FREE OF U WHEN I KEEP MYSELF BUSY

老师，您真的就这样离开了？

真的就这样离开了？

我说不上我对执信有多有感情。。。

因为同学聚会我基本不去

毕业之后

我也没有再回去过

昨天晚上快12点的时候

敏敏发了短信给我。。

佩佩...老聂...

就这样离开了？

why do all good things come to end？

和当年大梁走的一样突然

大梁是糖尿病。。

医生诊断的结果是感冒，就给她打葡萄糖，如果我没记错的话，这是陆志成说的。。。

没有几天，大梁就离开了

多好的老师啊

虽然初2的时候

大梁不教我们了。。。

很复杂的心情

其实去年校运会的时候我想和废曲一起回去的

但是那天刚好是院运会，抽不出时间

今年我是准备回去的。。。

想看看那些老师

那些可爱的人们

虽然有些老师我不喜欢

但毕竟，在那里6年

总有一些感情的吧

就像武汉一样

8年了，我一直都没有回去

只是很想以前的同学

儿时的朋友

幼儿园的伙伴们

我不知道该怎么形容

离开多年的感觉

是不是不会再回去了？

是不是就这样结束了一切

那边的一切，现在好陌生

记忆开始有些模糊了

眼睛也开始有些模糊了

是不是从今天开始

我要学会承受这里亲爱的人们离开的痛苦

是不是我还没有经历过亲人的离开

不知道这些痛苦

我能够像doctor一样

用那音速螺丝刀，一按，让人从新活过来吗？

或者像超人一样

把地球转一下

改变历史。。。

i ain't doctor 

i ain't superwoman

i really need some strong beat to keep me away from those pain

CAN U ROCK MY WORLD?

my high school maths teacher passed away

T_T

tears in my eyes...

prayers for my lovely teacher

always

i miss u....

FABREGAS miss HLEB& FLAM

Arsenal midfielder Cesc Fabregas regrets the departure of Alexander Hleb and Mathieu Flamini, as he feels The Gunners are lacking experience.
The Gunners’ maestro reckons his squad is short on numbers following the departure of major players, and he even claims the team have been forced to change the way they play.
The Spaniard is also missing playmaker Tomas Rosicky, who is still sidelined through injury.
“We have a short squad and we are very young,” Fabregas told a press conference. “Behind me Denilson and [Alexandre] Song play, and they are 20. [Theo] Walcott is 19 and [Samir] Nasri is 21.
“Can you imagine I’m the oldest midfielder? Winning will be tough for us because we are not experienced.
“Last season I scored a lot because I had [Tomas] Rosicky, and [Mathieu] Flamini who used to run all over the pitch.
“[Alexander] Hleb as well, who is like my brother. They have gone now and I feel weird. We are more conservative and strong, but with less touches.”
European champion Fabregas is an admirer of Arsene Wenger and has explained why the Frenchman is not into making big money signings.
He added: “Arsene Wenger has crystal clears ideas, there aren’t two like him. He doesn’t want to spend money as he prefers to trust youngsters.
“His idea is that Walcott can’t develop if you sign Cristiano [Ronaldo].”
The midfielder has compared Arsenal’s and Spain’s tactics, and even if he understands his status is much more important under Arsene Wenger, Fabregas remains a patient player when he wears the national jersey.
“To me it (not being an automatic starter for his country) is not an issue because I’m aware I’m young,” he added. “I play differently and must adapt.
“I’m not an attacker that plays with his back to goal because I haven’t got the body neither the agility to do it.
“I need to watch what’s happening because I’m not quick neither agile. I rely on my passes and my vision.
“Nowadays we play in 5-4-1 with Spain and at Arsenal it’s always 4-4-2. At Arsenal I can move, do what I think I must do. The gaffer doesn’t make me to do anything. I feel free.
“With Spain it is different, you touch the ball, make lots of controls. There (in England) it’s more about counter attacks and going as quickly as possible in front of the goal.
“I know who I am. I notice a change when I’m with Spain but it’s normal - I don’t play (in La Liga) and people don’t see me. I am 21 and have so much to learn.
“I feel so important in England, but you should remain humble when you play football.”
Fabregas was then asked about his opinion over foreign investment in The Premier League, and he said: “This hasn’t happened to Arsenal. But it’s like a hobby to them, like a toy.
“When they don’t like it they change it.”
Fabregas scored a last-second equaliser during the 1-1 draw at Sunderland but claims he is not good at headers.
“It’s rare because I’m used to scoring set pieces including corners, and I’m not good at headers. But I’d like to improve because a midfielder that can head the ball is more efficient.
“Most of all I must improve defensively. I always want to attack, to score, to deliver, it’s my dream.”



i miss them 2..
arsenal
come on
we could do it this season...
league champion
champion's league
in arsene i trust

i miss u..........

when mom mention the word BOYFRIEND to me.

all i am thinking is u

and i can't help tears falling

i miss u..

i know we haven't talk for like 2 or 3 years...

no my love

i know i could go on without u...

but it seems so hard..

mi amor

i love u...

i know we can't go back to 15 but just let me know we could still be friends........

but now we are totally stranger

i feel so strange

baby

i love brendon urie!!

he's so cute

and so funny 

that kinda guy i want!!

THE REASON WHY

"The Reason Why"

Yesterday

I waited for your friends to walk away

So I could say just what I mean

I know we're moving fast

We're running from the past

I'm holding on before it fades away

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake

And Baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

There's a reason why they say that we should give it time

But time is not enough

And that's the reason why

When you're young you fall in love

Standing still

I'm waiting round to see if this is real

Cause I feel like I'm asleep

I'll open up my eyes

Cause you might be the type

Of girl that makes me dream when I'm awake

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake

And baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

There's a reason why they say that we should give it time

But time is not enough

And that's the reason why

When you're young you fall in love

So tell me can this really work

Or will we end up getting hurt

Is this love or myth

So tell me are you in for this

There's so much than we can see

More than you

More than me

It takes two to believe

Maybe it's our first mistake

And baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

Maybe it's our first mistake

And baby that's alright

It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

There's a reason why they say that we should give it time

But time is not enough

And that's the reason why

When you're young you fall in love

That's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

That's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

with my fav movie

the notebook!

no premier league this weekend

international game this week...............

Estonia v Spain, October 11th, Belgium v Spain, October 14th.

i hope cesc not start all these 2 games, otherwise he'll be 2 tired 

we have the home game again EVERTON next sunday...

just hope to win....

good luck to THEO....

wish a hat trick

littlest things

lily allen's song......

really feel something...

"Littlest Things"

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing

Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'

And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's

All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses

I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood

I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could

We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt

I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

[Chorus]

Dreams, Dreams

Of when we had just started things

Dreams of you and me

It seems, It seems

That I can't shake those memories

I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but its so true

I know its not right, but it seems unfair

That the things are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on, Tell me

Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed

Watching DVD's

When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines

You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers

As if we ever needed anything to entertain us

the first time that you introduced me to your friends

and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand

when I was feeling down, you made that face you do

There's no one in the world that could replace you

[Chorus]

Dreams, Dreams

Of when we had just started things

Dreams of me and you

It seems, It seems

That I can't shake those memories

I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but its so true

I know its not right, but it seems unfair

That the things reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on, Tell me

Is this the end?

i don't know why..it just remind me of him....

i never really forget him

i don't know what to do with those memories

watching people around me have that one with them

i don't know what to say, what to do

just that is gone

it's gone

i won't c him again

but he always has a place in my heart i know this and i won't deny what happened that year. the best time of my life, with him

i was so happy but now i feel so lonely

sometimes i just wish i could just pretend if only just for one moment, just hold my hand. that is enough,tell me, he always love me.

that is enough....