almost 4 years and 2 years and 9 nine years

3 numbers...

4 represents that on Jan 11 2005 u told me u love me. it's been 4 years now.

2 represents that in 2007 i first know Fran merida 

9 represents that I left wuhan on Jan 20 2000. it's been 9 years. and it makes Gz the place i stay the longest...

i feel kinda low

i kinda dont know what 2 do

cos i have a headache

i have no idea what cause that

I can't open the home page of Blogspot..

So i can't write anything these days...

Yesterday the final of Structural Mechanics...

i don't know but i know i could just get away with that 

i don't expect any high grade 

i just wish to pass...

my 19th birthday is close

on Sunday

well my birthday is always about exams since i went to school

every year is the same

i don't always celebrate that...

i still remember on Jan 10 2005

u send message asked me what i want for my birthday

i told him that i just wanna be with him(that is really obvious)

he message and tell me it's his pleasure...

Shit..

what am i talking about????

some boring past bullshit memory again???

seems really sweet

but it doesnt make any sense right now

it has over for a long long long long time

i have let go of everything now

I DO HAVE LET GO OF EVERYTHING

SHIT...

IT ENDED A LONG TIME AGO WHEN I WAS YOUNG...

SHIT

WELL WELL WELL 

it 's quite well all these time

and i found myself addicted to Doctor who and Torchwood 

especially Captain Jack~

John barrowman 

Scott Gill is really really really really HOT

and David tennant is awesome

the next doctor (xmas special is really good) one should watch 

and the 11th doctor is Matt smith at age 26 become the youngest doctor ever

it is really good~

people said that he is not handsome and funny as David tennant

well, in my opinion when David replace Chris the first time

i kinda cant accept the fact

because Chris is such a fantastic Doctor..

anyway after wathching the show

i found out that David is just brilliant

who knows?

they just different

Can we judge people by first impression

definitely not

just by his looking 

judge by one's apparance just for the first time is just stupid

so just wait and see how Matt bring us to the 11th doctor and the head writer will be Steven moffatt...not russell T davies 

so i could say that there will be significant change in Doctor who season 5 in 2010. 

just wait~~

:)))

talking 2 much...

i think i should go back review dynamics...

next Monday...

such Big Present for my 19th birthday by the teacher~~:D

ha

anyway just kidding~~`

but God bless and good luck

i don't know who can trust...

my life is such a mess

i don't know who i can trust

i wish i never grow up

i never had things bother me like this when i was like 4 or 5

i was happy

anyway

what i learn recently is that 

i ned to face the truth

like i can never get full score in my exams

and arsenal can never win title with kids..

that is the truth...

and what i can do is ACCEPCT it

whatever..

i found someone visiting my blog...

it is wierd 

nearly no one know the address

and i don't want people know my blog

because i don't want others know much about me

who is that person?

i am curious

:P

it is his Bday

i try to forget

but i can't 

3 years ago

the very last conversation

i decided to forget everything 

leave that relationship behand and start a new life

now that i'm sure

i wanna a new life

i can live a wonderful life without anyone

maybe weve tried

maybe it is that we r not a match

maybe it is not love between us

IT SEEMS GOOD!!!

maths....

i start to understand those FOURIER SERIES

DIFFUSION EQUATION

that's good!!!

keep on!!!
i love u!!

and it seems no one can help

something it just needs me to get down there to finish.

NOW it is hard for me to trust anyone

AM I RUNNIN IN THE WAY THAT MY PARENTS DESIGNED FOR ME?

i know this is not what i want

i don't like civil.

i LOVE biology

i love mixing things

i don't know...

i've always imagine my life if i went to LONDON last year

i know that i wanna do something related to sports.

but now is just different..............

the stranger i know

i saw the photo about him yesterday

actually i feel nothing like the feeling is so much different right now. i have deifinitely moved on since that summer. i have nothing to worry about now. he is not that person i wanna be with anymore. 

time pass away so many things changed, it is just that i don't know things are different now and sometimes the feel will flow up. but i believe that is just temporarily and soon everything about him will fade until i could feel nothing anomore.

Pos	Team	P	W	D	L	F	A	+/-	Pts
1	Chelsea	4	3	1	0	9	2	7	10
2	Liverpool	4	3	1	0	5	2	3	10
3	Arsenal	4	3	0	1	8	1	7	9
4	Aston Villa	4	2	1	1	8	6	2	7
5	Hull City	4	2	1	1	5	8	-3	7
6	Manchester City	4	2	0	2	9	7	2	6
7	Fulham	3	2	0	1	4	3	1	6
8	West Ham United	4	2	0	2	8	8	0	6
9	Middlesbrough	4	2	0	2	6	6	0	6
10	Portsmouth	4	2	0	2	5	6	-1	6
11	Everton	4	2	0	2	7	9	-2	6
12	Wigan Athletic	4	1	1	2	7	4	3	4
13	Bolton Wanderers	4	1	1	2	4	4	0	4
14	Manchester United	3	1	1	1	3	3	0	4
15	W.B.A.	4	1	1	2	4	5	-1	4
16	Newcastle United	4	1	1	2	3	6	-3	4
17	Sunderland	4	1	1	2	3	6	-3	4
18	Blackburn Rovers	4	1	1	2	5	11	-6	4
19	Stoke City	4	1	0	3	7	10	-3	3
20	Tottenham Hotspur	4	0	1	3	4	7	-3	1

it almost laugh me to tears to see that hotspur only got 1 point and is at the bottom

stop those feelin' and let me get rid of everything 'bout u

i just log in to view my class blog.

pics about him

i used to take a lot but i deleted them after we were no longer together. it is just something that reminds me of those confusing times. look at those pics i found myself much changed this year after go to college. for this reason i should no longer think 'bout him any more. just it was over a long time ago, surely to move on and live my new life and leave all behind. but it is some kinda hard honey. i realised that i am so different compared with the person 1 year ago. not just the apperance but also inside.