the stranger i know

i saw the photo about him yesterday

actually i feel nothing like the feeling is so much different right now. i have deifinitely moved on since that summer. i have nothing to worry about now. he is not that person i wanna be with anymore. 

time pass away so many things changed, it is just that i don't know things are different now and sometimes the feel will flow up. but i believe that is just temporarily and soon everything about him will fade until i could feel nothing anomore.

Pos	Team	P	W	D	L	F	A	+/-	Pts
1	Chelsea	4	3	1	0	9	2	7	10
2	Liverpool	4	3	1	0	5	2	3	10
3	Arsenal	4	3	0	1	8	1	7	9
4	Aston Villa	4	2	1	1	8	6	2	7
5	Hull City	4	2	1	1	5	8	-3	7
6	Manchester City	4	2	0	2	9	7	2	6
7	Fulham	3	2	0	1	4	3	1	6
8	West Ham United	4	2	0	2	8	8	0	6
9	Middlesbrough	4	2	0	2	6	6	0	6
10	Portsmouth	4	2	0	2	5	6	-1	6
11	Everton	4	2	0	2	7	9	-2	6
12	Wigan Athletic	4	1	1	2	7	4	3	4
13	Bolton Wanderers	4	1	1	2	4	4	0	4
14	Manchester United	3	1	1	1	3	3	0	4
15	W.B.A.	4	1	1	2	4	5	-1	4
16	Newcastle United	4	1	1	2	3	6	-3	4
17	Sunderland	4	1	1	2	3	6	-3	4
18	Blackburn Rovers	4	1	1	2	5	11	-6	4
19	Stoke City	4	1	0	3	7	10	-3	3
20	Tottenham Hotspur	4	0	1	3	4	7	-3	1

it almost laugh me to tears to see that hotspur only got 1 point and is at the bottom

thinkin' so long... now i know that is the best result

If i could choose now
If he comes back for me
the answer is this
NO

we can't go back...
and that break up 3 years ago
we can't get so far
everything has to be end sometime
It is just soooooooooooooo hard to achieve the word FOREVER
what we ever had is enough
I think both of us give each other what we could

whatever that is enough

I saw my diaries today

about him
the memories

between me and him
like something never end

I don't know how he feel now after so many days
I don't know how can we still go on without each other and in deed that is how these years go away
Time flies and I moved on without u my darling
sometimes I imagine if we didn't break up 3 years ago and how are we today?

and sometimes I think of him
somehow I can't forget him
that is something I never forget

But everything is over, right?
long time ago
whatever I don't need to
and I don't want to
everything is over
I am confused
god
what can I do?

let all thoughts fly back to 4years ago

when I walk pass my high school today after finish dinner with my mate all the thoughts flow out and make me think about us. I could see everything clear on the way what we did like holding hands togebutther and he hold me walked me home when we were so young.

whatever everything is over, I ought to have my new life.
I can't always stuck in that relationship
I should have found someone but I just can't let go of him
He is just like a sign in my life

Damn u
I need to breath