cant believe I'm here can find wireless

and get on line

since blogger has been banned in mainland for so long
i haven no chance to log in and not to say blog

but speed on youtube twitter blogger is extremely fast
love it here
xx

BRAVO i got the good news

waited 4 so long
finally
i could
saying goodbye to all the things here

I'M GOING TO HKU NEXT SEMESTER
BRAVO
I CANT WAIT
FOR THE NEXT 2 YEARS

a new life
baby
what can i say

i'm really getting closer to my dream
first if HK
then i'm going to UK
i'm coming to LONDON
for my Arsenal!!!

at least i know what i want

it cant be more clear
if u ever come back and talk to me

i'm not sure about everything
but one thing i can be sure is that
we cant go back to before
we cant be together again

just suppose that
if this happen, which has a very small probability
the answer is no

i've changed
i moved on alone
all by my self
i used to get lost
i tried my best to stay him
he still said no
i know it is hard
but now there's nothing left there
only memory
the illusion of i love him

i'm sorry
but this aint gonna happen my baby
not even acquaintance
not even somebody i know

there's a time vortex between
millions of light years away
i let go already
baby

it's true
i have love you.

I'm sorry i still keep my promises to you

i still keep my promises to you.
it's been almost 4years.

i dont know if i will ever c u again.
and i dont know how long can i keep my promises.

a few years more or forever.
i dreamed bout u last night
it's not the first time.
there are a lot before.

i've always think about u will come back to find me.
but u never.

i dont know where u are.
i wish to hear ur voice
i wish to c u face 2 face.

i never stop thinkin of u.
i just cant let go
I've tried so many times to forget about u
forget about us.

but i just cant
i just cant

but u wont
u r already gone
i may never c u again my love

but i really love u
it's true
i never lie
i wish to start all over again.

but it seems impossible.
sorry my love
my first love.
i still keep my promises to u.

finally come the easter special of DW

that's just a long wait
from last year's xmas to this easter
but finally
finally
finally
11th apr is coming
what can i say.
i'll watch it later
kinda busy these days.

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some memory bout high school
but it's just a memory.
i'm all grown up now.
im 19
i know i cant forget but ive already moved on
time cant be reversed.
even though i may fall into a time vortex
but my mind cant be reversed.

that all
keep everything to the good memory is the best way

i dont like people judge me

mama called today...
she saw my essay..
and she said i should write some more reference
i dont know
i feel very unhappy
so i said byebye

i have to say that
the resource is limited
i have that 7 page essay
should be good enough

i really dont know
sometimes i think that i know
but the truth is that i dont like people judge me
i think i am always right

no
just forget that

i swim today
got some earache


i dont like life here
there's no water during days..
only after 6
theres water supply
sucks
i have no appetite
life sucks

really sucks...

i suddenly remember the dog i saw in summer 2006

it was i went to a damn place in that summer
just before the last year in high school
i was desperate
really desperate
but what can i do?

seems like no one else understand me
i can hardly eat
i can hardly speak anything
i dont think they were trying to help me

but that moment i saw a dog
i wasnt frightened at all
i looked into his eyes
i saw something there
like we knew each other long time ago
we just look at each other like that for several mintues


i saw sadness in his eyes
he was desperate
i dont know what to do
tears fill my eyes

I AM NOT FRIGHTENED

I am not frightened
I am not frightened of anything
The more I suffer, the more I love
Danger will only increase my love
It will sharpen it
It will give it spice
I will be the only angel u need
U will leave life even more beautiful than u entered it
heaven will take u back and look at u and say
only one thing can make a soul complete
and that thing is love
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i am still questioning myself have i ever loved someone
i still dont have the answer
once the feeling is so real
but suddenly it can be so unreal
i dont know if i am dreaming or not

but i am the faith in god
he will lead me to the right way
to the right life
to the right man
he is the light
he is the lord
he is always there
i know
he is

it's all about love

actually there was a time
i wanted to abandon this blog
because of some log in problems
but now seems everything's fine
so that's good
:D

back to the theme all about love
its all about love
everything
all about love

i watched the reader
let the right one in
all good films
really good
make ppl think
and make ppl cry
i cry when hanna is on court
and declared that she's gonna stay behind bars all her life
and michael read to her
every day every night
it's all about love
michael was very young

he was ashamed of the affair with Hanna
but Hanna was ashame of she couldnt read and write
what a shame
not every story ends up happy
a lot is some kinda tragedy
yet that's the truth of life
like tatanic
only few life story ends up like the notebook
snow white
it's like those are just novel
just story
just something we looking forward to
but in real life
these cant happen

just cant
probably i am shamed 2...
just all of what i had done when i was 15
it's a shame
a sweet shame
a sweet sin
but i need to walk out of that memory
i have a life
just need some more time
trust me
i can~

louis garrel!!!!

he is really hot~

really really really

it's killing me

i dont know what's going on
i still dont get the result of the interview
on the day of interview it was said that the students supposed to know the result at the beginning of Feb. but right now it's the end of Feb.
i was worried about it
Today, i heard people saying that the result wont come out till the end of Mar.

i dont know what's going on in HKU.
it was said that the head-master of the University is not very supportive of this program.
seems they wanna fail more ppl..
it was said that there're 30 place for us if every one qualified.

i try not to think about the result but i just cant help
what if i cant get the offer
that would definitely hard to accept.

Things are going bad

I don't know things are going bad. I don't know what to do and there's nothing i could do. All those supposes what if i can't ... What if i can't ... But the answer is that i really don't know. I kinda can't think. I kinda don't know what to think. But the future. The future i really expect to go there. What if my life was ruined. What if that is what god punish me for? Is it ture that they won't judge on the exam results to give one the offer? I don't know... If they look in to the exam score which is awful and i may be sure to know that i would be one out of the offer list... Honestly, i have worked hard but i don't know why i can't get high scores in exams. God it's killing me. Ok now i just want to ask god did i make a wrong choice? I've always believed you. There.s no way you gonna see my whole life ruined. I had a future before. You let me see it once. I believed in you. But why i can't see the future now? My lord please let me see the future. I trust you. You gotta help me with everything. PLEASE

I admire asimov

A great writer who has a great mind:-) give me hope to the world outside. The universe far away some where my life could be different. But i don't know.

got all the results of my grade of last term

i have to say that i sucked
drawing 66
i expected it could be this low
cos i only got B and C's for those assignments
anyway i didnt fail
should i just look the good point of this?

i ask god why did he let me suffer so much
he never answer me this
but anyway he has give me some hope
seriously
hope

i ought to be hopeful for them
at least i have hope to change everything...

honestly

still waiting...

the result of the interview
and whether i could go to HKU this Sept isnt 4 sure yet

panic...
i dont know what 2 do when i still dont get the result
i dont know what 2 do if i get the result
i dont know what 2 do if i was refused
......


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lily allen's new album is awesome
it's not me it's you

this yeat's trend is some mix with electrical
but i still cant add lily on myspace
that stupid last name is drivin me insane

现在才发现，其实，我经常都是在做自己喜欢的

来广州之后，我说要学钢琴。。。
于是，从10岁开始
我开始学钢琴了

还有舞蹈
虽然，是妈妈送我去学的
不过后来是自己真的喜欢了

都是，喜欢的

以后，还是一样
要做自己喜欢的事情
和自己喜欢的人在一起
一直都不要变

不知道用什么语言来形容我的心情

乱。
我现在越来越喜欢KATY PERRY了。想起那时还说，她声音太粗了…不过，音乐是多种多样的…
总觉得有很多想写的，但却写不出来。
时间似乎过的很快。面试好像过了很久，其实只有半个月。
但我觉得是不久前才踏上火车，2000年1月20号。不知不觉9年了，真的是时间不等人啊。
似乎还是昨天，他牵着我的手，陪我回家，一转眼4年了。
一天，一天，一周一周，一月，一季，一年…时钟滴滴答答的走，不肯停止。一天一天过的好快，回过头，发现有些事情，真的是，不敢想…
停下来，转过头，看看，才发现身边曾经陪伴我的人不知所踪。是我走的太快，还是我转左，你转右了？于是我独自一人，望着前方，走出第一步，第二步…我还是回时不时回头，寻找你的身影。
我不知道我要什么，我真的需要一个DOCTOR…
我寻找着那个PERFECT的Mr.Right，那个会牵着我的手，在我想get away的时候，带我离开，到一个只有你，只有我的地方。能够听我说话，不会责备我，不管发生什么。
只是有时，我会迷失，不管怎么样，我知道，有人会在那里，等我，不管发生什么。

i never love him be4 and will never after

i know it
but how come i keep dreaming about him these days
i said i dont like him
i never really fall in love with him
why
why?
why i keep dreaming about him
why why?

still talkin 'bout title

i dont want to just look them down
but hey hey guys face the truth
the truth is that arsenal is in 5th place right now
if the season end up like this
we certainly can not qualified 4 the Champion league
and the champion
i have to say now
United
they should be the champion

so the truth is that i didnt really love him

yeah
he's not someone the i have really really loved
though i've cried 4 him
being heart broken
but the feeling is not real
everything is not real
i was never in love with him