fuck... is this really the truth?

i went the lab this afternoon

my group has no plan

but the leader didn't tell me....

ok...

fuck it

i don't wanna say anything about this anymore

fuck

even if he called me later around 7

i didn't say anything mean

there is no use to say anything rude or whatever i wanna say

just i don't wanna say anything to anybody

everything is meanless

after class i called mom

i talked about something i feel about the class

and i dont feel that well

cos everybody seems to hide what they know instead of sharing what they had

thoughts is not like apple

u give me one i give u one

both of us still have one

u give me one thought i give u one thought

both of us will have two

but why people don't wanna share?

and i feel somebody really disgusting

what she behave in front of me is totally different from the truth

in other words i think she is look down upon me

whatever

i don't know

just wish i could get out of here soon

can i?

61...narrowly past the exam on TM

one thing i don't understand is that why i still got such a low mark

i studied much harder than the previous year

this is gonna kill me

i don' know why

theoretical mechanics isn't that difficult right?

but why i still can't get a score like 80 some

where is that problem?

any one come to save my world?

i got questions but i can't figure out the answer.

so much things 

the world seems so unreal

Supporting Arsenal is like having an Italian lover - you never know what's coming next but it's bloody exciting

that is right

absolutely right

i never know what is next 

we may win 

we may lose

but there is always surprise

and IT IS BLOODY EXCITING!

2-1 united 

awesome

i love u !

why is him?

lying in the bed we used to

the sheet was the same as those days.

mom changed that for me

suddenly those memory flowed

time went back to 2005

i was 15

i got the best present that year

it doesn't matter what is the present

what matter is the person who gives u 

sometimes i still reminisce especially when i watch couples holding hands walking together

why is him again?

holding hands together

he walked me home...

just why

we kissed

why is him who appear in my dream?

it ends 3 years ago

everything ended long time ago

why is him still haunting me?

i should have already get over them

i cant forget.

why forget?

it ends tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain 

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends 

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

when darkness turns to light

it ends tonight

and it is really better to leave me along

tell me when the night is over

we are not over

but that night

after that phone call

and those messages.

everything ends

end of a era

it was a end of me and u

the story ends there

absolutely it was not the end i want

but think back

can we really go that far

there would still be an end one day

maybe not july 8th 2005

maybe some day later

there would be a goodbye

think back that wasn't a bad goodbye

at least we had it

the point is that at least we had it

that is enough

i know i would be regret if i hadn't tell him i love him

once is enough

and i know that once is really enough

forever is so hard

but we had it

once we had it

and those memories were sweet

i know i have loved u

eric dill

eric saying goodbye

eric singing MARY JANE

so wonderful

i didn't cry the day u moved away

i didin't think that i could feel this pain

until i saw the stranger that was u

i was wrong that was not the last

i wrote something last week 

i decided that was the last piece i wrote about u

I WAS SO WRONG

there will never be the end

u & me

though we r apart now

if i could have one chance

if u could just pretend for 1 day

that is enough for me

let me feel it one more time

just tell u 

u r not so far.