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Monday 29 December 2008

Finally we won before new year

Whatever it is good. Goal from william gallas.

Saturday 27 December 2008

We could have won the game

Now the problem is not about title any more because we are no longer in. The problem is about whether we can keep top 4 place. I seriously doubt.

Monday 22 December 2008

天空很黑,我看不到星星

晚上从图书馆出来,抬头,看了看天空
发现深蓝的天空,没有1颗星星点缀
还记得小学的时候,一次去夏令营,去了郊区
晚上抬头看到满天闪闪发亮的星星
还有望远镜,可以看到土星

这让我想到了东湖
3,4岁的时候,夏天一到
爸爸妈妈就带我去东湖游泳
那清澈见底的湖水
还有石头,我穿这那件红色的游泳衣
还有游泳圈
只是不知道什么时候一切都消失了
东湖没有清澈的湖水
剩下死鱼和臭水
眼睁睁看着湖医的废水流进东湖
心理不是滋味

今天英语口试
话题是wealth
的确钱很重要
我不否认
我在想在他们工资都没有1千的时候,
我们住在4楼的小房子
现在的确
家里的经济好了
住的房子大了
是不是我更开心了
不是的
我很想回到那时
至少是1家人
虽然我对父亲没有什么感觉
他从来没有敬过他的责任
他会的只是指责

还有他
一句对不起
就玩了
真的不够男人
当面都没有说清楚
枉我还那么爱他

过去就过去了
我是拿得起放得下的人!

我的阿森纳
我爱你
永远的
永远的
圣诞的魔鬼战役来了
我的魔鬼期末+面试来了
we stand up like a soldier
we fight together
we stand shoulder to shoulder
no one can bring us down
cos we are fighter
face it
and kill the enemy
no way back now
we never look back
cos WE ARE GUNNERS!
WE NEED BALLS
fight
fight
fight
no looking back

圣诞战义来了…我们一起度过难关

队长受伤了…膝盖韧带出问题了…我们总是那么像…是不是我努力一点,球队的成绩会更好一点?魔鬼的圣诞战役来了…魔鬼的期末和面试来了…一切不可能停止,下场对维拉,不能输,已经没有退路了。所以,我们要站起来,像个武士一样,拿起武器,拼了,豁出去了。stand up like a soldier, and fight. We need some balls. Don't stand there and cry like a bitch.

Sunday 21 December 2008

EVERYBODY'S CHANGING


每个人都在变
的确
有时候觉得天空很黑
看不到太阳
有时候觉得大雾很浓
看不到前方
有时候觉得夜晚很安静
之能听到自己的心跳

感觉一下
什么才是真实的?
世界是不是真实的?
还是我们是别人控制的一个虚拟世界
希望不是
平行世界在哪里?
我需要doctor
那个fantastic brilliant的doctor

问问我自己
当时为什么那么想去伦敦
不是为了阿森纳
其实,只是赌气
他去加拿大
我要去英国
只是为了赌气
或许是想逃避
也许看不到
就不会想起伤心的事情了

每个人都在改变
感觉一定和4年前不一样
4年前的圣诞节
是最美丽的
因为有你
15岁的生日是最美丽
因为有你
-----------------------------
一切都变得艰难了
我觉得现在港大在卡我们
不想我们过去
好吧
我真的不想说什么
中国最好的大学
港大有资本这样做
只是当时人人都说这个专业好
我只想说
i don't want to study the fucking civil engineering
只是当初一个很无奈的决定
纯粹是为了香港
没有任何意义的

u are never to old to learn
但是i won't be seventeen forever
没有东西是永远的
世界真的好复杂
有时我真的想回到小洪山
八一路
去取那个我曾经上过培优班的科教大厦
还有董必武广场
是不是还和记忆力的一样?
google地图上可以看到我的幼儿园

或许就像小法一样
他要回巴塞罗那
我也要大声地说出来
总有一天
我要回武汉
或许是10年之后
或许是20年
那是我生活10年的地方
点点滴滴
最然会不一样
但是对那里的感情
是不会变得
就算再怎么漂泊
那里总会是我的家

我知道了
不变的是
我是武汉人
永远都不会变
不敢我去到那里
我都是一样
武汉人

Saturday 20 December 2008

绝望了

我看不到希望…我不知道和谁说…明天考4级…晚上发现,本来上午应该交的图没交…完蛋了…为什么一切都变的那么难…我真的很想放弃了…让我看不到希望…我只是想身边有个他,有个肩膀能让我靠靠,有个地方让我躲躲,在他身边我能感到安全…我不想再说我很坚强,我是女人,我也需要爱,可是没有人…那个他,分开之后就一直没怎么联系了…我不愿意承认一个事实,我爱他,超过我所想的…那次他说他想我,我回了他,我们已经结束了。是我先放手的,但我没有彻底的放手…我想离家出走…我想一个人静一下…我要思考的太多了…好混乱,那年他过生日,他说他不爱我了,因为爱一个人很累…是的,舆论,还是拆散了我们,那对不起3个字,是我心中永远的疼。我不能假装没有发生过一切…所有的第一次,刻骨铭心…我们的约定…我还是坚守着…我还是没有放下…时间没能治愈我的伤…我一直在骗我自己。对不起…在最美丽的时刻分开,是最美丽的…就像维娜斯…不是完美,却是完美…

Friday 19 December 2008

i sucked

I FORGOT TO HAND IN THE DRAWING ASSIGNMENT...
2 OF THEM
HOW COM???
WHY???
I DON'T REALLY HAVE GOOD MARK ON THOSE had given back, only B+ the highest...
and with C- ...
i may fail...
on my god...
no non

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

no
no no

Thursday 18 December 2008

always some fantasic things that attract me

go abroad is always what i want
US, Britain...
i always imagine if i went to London last year, what will i become



i really have no idea
after 2 years in college
i kinda lost myself in every way
i wanna what i could achieve
cos i am losing my faith
Civil Engineering is some thing i've never thought of 1 year ago
i still doubt if it is the right choice.
one year ago i was thinking about IC
now all my mind is about HKU...
MIT, Caltech, UC...
all seems so far...
i can't even dream about those anymore
where is the future?
i can't see one...
i still can't just get off those memories
like him.
like last year...
how come i become such a person?

Tuesday 16 December 2008

early winter





gwen Stefani
i remember the first time i heard her song, she was still in No doubt...
than her first album LAMB
what you waiting for

cool
this song is that summer 2005, the year i had the hardest time during that summer vacation.

i can never be as cool as gwen
i can't pretend nothing happened
forget about friends
it's just bullshit
we are nothing now
it's like everything is going away a long time
i admit it was sweet
but it was over
and i know it will over
we cant be forever
nothing last forever
i know this
but why i still felt so sad

i did had a bad day went back in Sept, 2005
i thought u too
but how come you get things pass so easy
i even said that u don't love me any more
u said that love is too tired
why?
why?
how?
how?
i don't believe
i cried
i screamed
i was desperate
BUT NOW
I TELL MYSELF EVERYDAY
LOVE IS NOT HIM
LOVE IS ME
LOVE IS MORE THAN THAT
he is not that person
i knew it
i knew it
but i just can't shake those memories
---------------------
Daniel Powter is just awesome
stop the talk
walk the walk

Sunday 14 December 2008

i swear i'll go to bed befor 12 everyday

this is a serious problem. i need to pay attention to my health.

so this is my rule
go to bed everyday before 12.
eat 3 meals a day.

Wednesday 10 December 2008

hot n' cold






on the edge of break down
if you could just take me away
only for 1 second
to hold your hand
to feel you near...
since that day you walk out my door...
i can feel u nowhere
and i know that i am barely hanging on
without you by my side
i have to face everything on my own
i don't know if i could achieve anything
i tried every way to forget u
but i just couldn't cos i cant pretend those never happened...


my roommate didn't come back for a week
i heard that she's about to leave
prepared for IELTS
she wanna go to Canada..
i am a little allergy to Canada ...

Tuesday 9 December 2008

The all american rejects

I remember the first time listen to their song MOVE ALONG on MTV in 2005. And later their single IT ENDS TONIGHT. Feel so much about those lines WHEN DARKNESS TURNS TO LIGHT IT ENDS TONIGHT. And this morning suddenly listen to STRAITJACKET FEELING, So many feelings flow out. RUN AWAY THIS TIME WITHOUT U. 2005 i was feeling that so much. Tell me it is already over. But why i still dream about him saturday. It ends when i don't even give him all my love. It ends the moment that i am falling deeper and deeper for him. But why? Tell me why, why goodbye? I love u...no, i loved you...

Monday 8 December 2008

i drive myself crazy

it's an old song
but it is awesome
from the boy group n' sync

Everything is about to end.

Next monday will be the english writing test. Final exams are coming. The interview , which i regard one of the most important tasks in my life won't be far. Anyway, things are keeping getting better.:)

Now that britney is back, there's no reason for me to quit

With her new album CIRCUS and Arsenal with the new captain Cesc, they are really doing amazing. Facing the final exams and the interview, there's no way to holding back anything. Though under pressure, i can't give up. It's not even half way yet. Think about it, if i got the chance to go to london last year, now it is also the time for interview. Inevitablely, i have to work hard. And i am going to achieve it. Just wait and see. Everyone is doing his best to help me. Father had already give me a mock interview, and this weekend, my father's friend is going to have another interview the following weekend. And me course, mother is always there to support, help me in everyway. IT IS NOT HALF WAY YET, THERE'S NO REASON TO QUIT:-)

Sunday 7 December 2008

It can't be him

But the truth is him.:-( i don't know what to say. It is complicated. More than 3 years have passed, i don't know why i still can't shake those memories. It is just so hard. I feel frustrated. He constantly appears in my dream. Why did i think about him when i feel helpless?

Friday 5 December 2008

JONAS BROTHERS

i remember that i saw a really cute band a few years ago on MTV

i thought they were 30 seconds to mars
but the fact is that they are JONAS BROTHERS

just awesome
YEAR 3000
rock!!

love

i dont know if i still have the ability to fall in love again

sometimes i just wish i was one of the diva in those touching love movies
like tatanic, the notebook, pearl harbour
there will be a man who could just always be there for me
i guess there is no such man in real life
they are just some characteristic in fictions

right at this moment
i have to ask myself 
WHAT IS LOVE?
and
WHERE IS LOVE?
it has been so long since last time
i don't even know what is love
i was so young
like i just dont even know what love is
how can i go so close with him those years..
funny
whatever...

but there will be that special person right?
at least i believe
one guy who goes crazy everytime sees me
right?
and i am crazy 2
surely there will be this guy

i thought i may never have child all my life
cos it's horrible
but if that is someone i really love
if i marry him
and i really love him
i do want kids...

see
this is how people change

Thursday 4 December 2008

don't tell me LONDON is just a dream

don't tell me that
i have faith in myself
london is not a dream
but why i have the feeling that everything is fading
tell me why

Wednesday 3 December 2008

Tired

Stomache:-(

Tuesday 2 December 2008

there's no way to forgive him

really no way

because he did those things to me last year
killing my London dream
i just can't forgive him

though he may help me with my interview now
there's no way i could do this
yes


my ear ache today:(